Dear Diary...
Remember being 10 and your diary held all your secrets? Favorite things, gossip, love. This is the diary of my life. Hopefully in a more artistic manner. Everything is original (i.e. my own) unless credit is given elsewhere.
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The Future Awaits
Within the past couple weeks I have been accepted to 3 fantastic graduate schools in England. It’s all I’ve ever wanted. To get out of the country, broaden my horizons, experience a new culture, travel. But now that the decision has been made and the offer accepted, I’m afraid I might be giving up more than I’m gaining. I won’t miss the birth of my second niece or nephew but I won’t be back until he/she is well over a year old. I will miss my little sister’s wedding ceremony. And I may be losing my best friend… He will graduate from military academy in May and will leave for training shortly after. Although I understand his reasons, and realize he will have other priorities, and know it would be impractical for us to be together, I can’t help fearing I will never see him again. I can feel him pushing me away and our last conversation keeps replaying in my head. I can’t help feeling like I’ve been dumped. Still, I’m going. Walking away from everything I know, into the unknown. But I can’t help wondering and fear what the consequences will be…
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What I learned today
*it’s really easy to write about something you love*
Writing essays is difficult, but when you are legitimately interested in the subject and want to know everything you can about it, writing is simple. When you love what you are doing it shows.
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What I learned today
*Everyone just wants to feel loved*
Maybe this is the alcohol talking but all I want is to feel needed and loved and I have found this to be true in many many people. Its human instinct. Finding that love, however, is nothing but disappointment and heartbreak.
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What I learned today
*Guys can be more sensitive than girls*
I suppose this goes for anyone really, but it isn’t something society at large expects from men. Sex is a very intimate act and some guys can’t handle casual sex, while most of the women I know can. Even if they think they can handle it, they end up feeling more than they bargained for and they over think and over analyze. Then they get defensive and distant until they can get over it. It would seem like an unusual reaction to most people, but I’ve seen it happen more often than not recently.
